To someone whom I loved (:

Here in darkness I sit, wanting to decipher the meanings of all what he said, intentionally he never meant a word, never tried to hurt me nor did he ever allow a frown sit on my brows for long, but today when I see, walking back those memory lanes, re-reading those old letters, watching those pictures, having these flashes of the time we were together, I am sure nobody can fake that genuine care and that stare in the eye. 


He, always held my hand, strong and tight, making sure I wouldn't feel alone or out of his sight, his attention was always on me, on the problems I had in my life, sitting right next to me he'd sort them one by one and then all. 


His presence always made me smile; for there was somebody I knew who would always stand by my side. He was that friend who made me believe in those stars and those wishes again, he made me believe that in each one of us we have a stronger someone. He made sure that all those troubles, problems, sadness and all the negativity wouldn't stay anywhere near me. 


He was somebody who'd guide me like a light above my head, leading me to a place safer & towards success. He knew what was right for me and what wasn't. He had made me fall in love with his heart which I would never regret. Though he is not with me today but his memories are still pretty strong in my head. Though I can’t hold his hand nor can I hug him that way, we don’t talk that often nor do we meet every day, the awkwardness had brought us closer and now its forever here to stay. 

In the memory of whom I truly loved, a person who has a heart of gold but who couldn’t keep me in his heart for long enough. A person who has always been close to my heart & who always will be a part of my soul. Yes, he engraved a craving in my heart which shall last forever. I miss him every day, every minute & every second, but there is nothing else that I can do. 


To those good old times, 
Those hugs, to make each other smile,
The constant jokes, 
The never ending stares, 
Those moments where we would laugh and then kick silence for a toss, 
To those amazing rides, 
And to the brilliant tasting times. 


Thanks for standing by, for making sure that happiness kisses my feet. For never letting me work, for getting me into this habit of yours and then making sure that I’d gracefully accept this pitfall.




I can’t do much but accept it and move on, for there lies a tomorrow which shall show us what it’s got :’)