Random Realizations, Part 6: Doomsday

So, I was sitting besides my window, looking outside where these kids were playing. My neighbour was taking dance classes in the parking area, the younger kids were on the swings and some were playing badminton, the weather that day was just so amazing, these clouds which promised not to trickle down till these kids were safely home. 


There were so many thoughts running in my head, I was just wondering how did the time pass so quickly? 
I remember I was just a kid then, playing & enjoying my life. That happy face that I wore every minute, no matter how many times I’d hit the ground, no matter how many times I’d be running around that same old tree to get answers and then sit quietly. 


That swing was like my second abode, I’d sit there for hours & hours straight, blankly stare the sky, look at the birds cross by, dance to my own tunes, nobody would matter, nobody would care. 
Just me and I, with those dreams which promised to act as wings and make me fly, it was all so good. What happened to the way it used to be?


When was the innocence replaced by such ill thoughts and feelings? How did it all start? Why is it like this now? Too much pressure I was putting on my nerves, just when I had a clear view of it all. 


I saw this; this kid pushed a girl off the swing because he wanted to sit. 


Well, we might just think of it as a very normal view where kids would be fighting, but for me it was more like “this is where it starts”. 


That point was like an inception, today he pushed a girl off a swing, tomorrow it will be a cliff. 
Well exaggeration, yes, but I guess it’s required. 


That’s how the world moves, you want something, and you crush somebody & get it. There is too much cruelty spreading around, too much negativity & too much of “self thinking/obsession/admiration”


I was moved, I was taken aback. I joined those beads and made a necklace, a necklace which chokes you to death, a necklace which holds you so strong; it’s made of hatred, dislike, regret, grief, sorrow, darkness, broken hearts & promises, aches & failures, distress, stress, hurt and negativity. 


The darkness has taken over, there is this dullness in the sky, stars don’t shine, the swing doesn’t pleases me anymore, the birds don’t want to be around, nobody to trust, no wishes, no dreams, it looks like the end is here. 


Well, to end this as they all say, ‘It’s a mean, mean world’.